I realize that I haven't posted anything, and I have made promises to you guys to post. There's been some really bad things going on lately, and since I think it might affect how I act and what I post I think you all deserve to know. Lately I've been feeling a little... dark. My grandmother is feeling sick and I'm scared that I'll lose her. My best friend tried to commit suicide in school, she cut her wrists in the lunch room. Last year my friend, the person I looked up to, the person who was my model, overdosedd and killed herself. I felt extremely unstable and sometimes I don't feel anything at all. I was in a mental hospital for suicidal f